Ok. So I got a lot on my mind here, so bear with me. First of all, my mom is a crazy psycho bitch. Whew, I feel better. She always wants to go with me to everything Ethan is involved in. She can't seem to realize that she is Ethan's GRANDMOTHER, not MOTHER. That's my job. I go to the ceremonies and school programs. Not her. She gets to not go to these annoying events. But no. She's the only grandparent in the universe that insists on going to everything. It really annoys me, and worse it makes me feel like I don't have the right to share these things with my child. If I want to do anything just me and Ethan, she says it's fine and then she sulks. It's just like with me when I was a kid. I never knew the umbilical cord could stretch that far. She needs to learn to cut it already. Even people at church have commented on how she is way too attached to him. So last night she says, "So, what's the schedule for tommorrow?" I say, "Well, I'll take Ethan to his belt test and then we'll have to go straight to the Open House from there and then we'll come home." She says, "Ok, then I'll need to go with you to the belt test then, unless you don't want me to go." I sigh to myself and tell her that I guess she can go if she just really wants to. Not taking the hint, she asks Ethan if it's ok, and he tells her that no, he doesn't want her to go. Of course she gets upset, so he immediatly says he was kidding and she can go. (Smart kid, that one.) And she says, "No, if you don't want me to go, that's ok, really." He responds with a prompt, "Ok. I don't want you to go." (well, maybe not that smart.) She said that was fine. And now 24 hours later, she's still sulking. It's really starting to piss me off. I told her that grandparents don't go to everything and she said most grandparents didn't spend most of their time raising the kid. I felt some umbrage at this, but I felt it would be best to leave that alone. So it's all very annoying.
Now what was the other thing? Crap. I spent so long complaining I forgot. Oh yeah, whenever anyone hears that Ethan is going to live with David for a year, EVERYONE says, "So you can finish school?" I say no, and they reply with a pregnant, "Oh." So, the only reason I would send my child away is so I can go back to school. Not that he wants to go spend some time with his dad? It's kinda making me feel like crap, and I'm getting a little ticked off about it. It makes me feel like they're all saying either, "What kind of mother lets her child leave without a good reason," or, "why would he WANT to leave?" I'm probably reading too much into things, but it's still annoying. I almost feel like I should sign up for a class, so I can answer yes when people say that. That would suck though, cause I really want to go full time when I go, and I can't afford to quit my job, so I would just be able to take evening classes, making my life complicated. I dunno. People suck.
4 comments:
That's hilarious that Ethan said that to your mom. My little brother was always doing stuff like that...like we'd all want to eat cake or something before we were supposed to and mom would get mad and say "Fine! Just eat the whole thing! I don't care!" and then he would. We'd all yell at him and he'd say; "she said we could!" I don't think your a horrible mother, I think it's good for Ethan to get time living with both parents. and you're right people ARE stupid! :)
I think that you are upset that Ethan is leaving, but your logical mind sees that it is a good idea. Your emotional mind objects, but your logical mind overrules. Then your emotional mind starts sulking and throws extra wrenches in with your common everyday emotion, wreaking havoc. Or you hate your mother. Who knows? If it's the former, then it will get worse as E's departure date arrives. If the latter, then it won't end until you move out or one/both of you become heavily medicated. But, then again...what do I know? :) Oh, and I agree...people generally are pretty stupid.
i think you should change the title of your blog to 'Diary of a mad white woman'.
I'm not mad you jerk!
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