steele trap

My mom is very demanding and grasping. Every since Ethan was born, she has managed to keep me in the house because she would only babysit at certain times and for certain reason, and that is her right. She didn't have a baby, I did, and it's fine if she doesn't want to be a full time mother. I could go out with him, but, quite frankly, I wouldn't have any fun that way. So now that Ethan has gone out of town for two weeks, I was looking forward to some away time. I was trying to make plans for Friday during the day, and my mom said wistfully, "You're going out? I hope we don't NEED you for anything." You see, dad's eye surgery was Thursday, and mom was implying that they might need me to drive them around or wait on dad hand and foot or something. I knew it wouldn't take her long to find some other way to keep me home now that she doesn't have the Ethan excuse. And the thing that sucks, is I know what her next tactic will be already. You see, I'm really broke right now, and I owe her a tidy sum of money. My next paycheck is going to be small, and I might not have enough for all my bills, let alone paying her back. And so when I go out, she'll say, "How do you have money for gas?" If I choose to pay her and not save money for gas, I'm then trapped. She will have me stuck here again. My only consolation is that Ethan is going to be gone for the next year, so I know at some point I will have money and free time at the same time. It's a dream I dare to dream. I will keep hope alive!